A little about my day - 29/08/05

A little about my day;

I woke up in the most pessimistic mood today. Like all was lost. The thought of working until January is making me nauseous, and I'm having enough trouble dealing with my reluctance to continue on working with these guys. So I am faced with a dilemma. My wage is sufficient enough for me to atleast save some money for my plans at the end of the year, but this environment is driving me crazy.

I work independently in a small, drab master bedroom. It's a modest office building that resembles an old house. Actually, it is an old house with a porch, full size kitchen and a shower. Renovated along with the neighbour's house, to be reborn as freight forwarders. It is a nice place and I do at least have some company now. My concern is that the company I work for is supposed to be an international player with a global network of agents. I'm sure our allies overseas would laugh to hear that Brisbane has one unqualified freighty that sits in a bedroom all day. So it has come to my attention that if my bosses don't care enough about Brisbane it would only be detrimental to me if I care.

Our (my) head office is in Melbourne so I have work by myself all by my lonely self. Recently I have been imagining the analogy of a soldier trapped behind enemy lines. He calls for back up, "Delta 1, this is Charlie. I need back up, now".
"No-can do soldier. It's just to damn hot in there. Your going to have to wait it out. Good luck" replies Delta 1 (the head office), in a nervous sounding voice. I'm concerned that the next four months will be changing times for my industry and I don't want to have to deal with. From my experience these problems can be very stressful.

So: Money and job or no money and sanity?

Suprisingly I have regained some of my optimism tonight so I think the winner is........Money YAY for money. It is the most important factor for me and my plans next year. No money, no climbing Thailand. It has been many years since I have traveled to lands a far. Of course, I will be going to uni next year and it is always handy to have some money waiting for the start of uni.

I'm still reluctant to continue on working with these guys but I'll do it for now. Logically it works, but once put into practice it just seems so wrong.

Nengi