1 week to go

I should be excited and happy about my trip but I find myself overly concerned with things outside my control. My infatuation with budgeting has turned out to be my down fall and finding a tenant for my room is becoming exceedingly difficult.

The budget was rock solid 2 weeks ago but now, as outgoing over runs topple and expected income is restricted, I am some what nautious. At any cost I can look forward to some sort of credit card debt when I get back. It has been said that many people come back from traveling holidays with some sort of debt but I was eagerly looking forward to coming back with some cash in my pocket for the commencement of my school year. We can't have everything and this is what forever drives me crazy. I struggled so hard to be frugal and economical but still I find additions to my budget which are just impossible to account for.

The prospect of finding a tenant for my room is frustrating to say the least. If I hear the words "I'll think about it one more time", I'll flip. Thinking about it can only take a couple of days in my situation. Without the reassurance of a tenant I feel like it will be a burden on my time while away. Having to pay rent while on holidays isn't my idea of fun.

So while I should be excited I am overly stressed about things beyond my control. Really I should simply understand the risks I am challenging and also understand that nothing is certain. Initially I thought my estimations were sure but now I am sure my budget over runs and unexpected costs will rule my thoughts until the day I leave. Hopefully no longer following my arrival in Bangkok.

There is also the new CMR regulations implemented by Australian Customs that plague my daily workload, but that is best left unspoken.

"...For someone that loves change it surely scares the living daylights out of me" Nengi