3 weeks and I'm not sure where home is.

It has been some time since my last entry to this life journey of mine. Reasons being are possibly to confusing for me to understand as of yet. I have a feeling it has something to do with the culture shock I am still suffering from. There are so many differences to this culture compared to Australian culture. Admittedly I feel I have been privileged to meet Na. She is a wonderful person and I have getting to know her better and better every day.
We traveled from Bangkok, west, to Kanchanaburi. Only for a couple of days but it was a great relief to get out of bangkok. For someone like myself Bangkok is an exceptionally overwhelming city. Even the simple task of crossing the road is made difficult by no real clear cut moment of safety. You walk at your own risk but most of the time the cars and saamlaw see you coming. It's a dicey balance of controlled chaos and oblivion.

But back to the beginning. Luckily for me I managed to meet someone on the plane trip here. He was a nice enough guy so we ended up sharing a room. I feel for him now as I abandon him at the time. After 2 days I managed to meet my, now, girlfriend and we have been together since. Initially I expected to do the normal travel thing. Move around from city to city, seeing the local tourist hangouts and definitely spending some time in Krabi climbing. Strange as is sounds I have only been climbing 1 time in the last 3 weeks. And yes I am having withdrawals as I type.
As it turns out the privilege and advantage of having a Thai GF is that I possibly get to see more places that are less accessible to the common farang. At times I question my integrity because I continually see these mixed relationships. I wonder whether I am different to those I see on the street. See there are a variety of different mixed relationships that exist in Bangkok. First and foremost there is that of the day by day stalker. Now this may be a generalisation but I have seen (not first hand) that many Thai men or woman (mostly woman) frequent the local pubs and clubs in Th Khao San. They are searching for the unsuspecting drunk backpacker. Some might have sex while others might get some money. But the buck stops at the fact that, essentially, these are not long relationship and can potentially only be one night stands with the hope of monetary return.

I would like to see my situation as different. I have met this wonderful girl and we are still together. Nobody likes using the word love this early in play but I can surely say that I am crazy about here. I was out one of those dang farang bars on my second night. I don't normally have an interest in that loud ear drum splitting scene but I thought I should at least attempt to meet some new friends for my travels. Alex (the guy I met on the plane) and I went along with some Irish blokes and before I knew it they were having a ball, jumping around and generally doing what boys our age do. So I soon left for Soi Rambuttri, which was the lane where my room was at the time. I was convinced to sit down by a lovely guy named Tom, or Cha Cha (Slow Slow), as they call him. Cha Cha's is a road side bar which is basically a set of tarpaulins on the road. It's simple and that is why I chose to sit there. By they time I was ready to leave it was about 5 in the morning and I was being convinced to stay just a little longer by Na who had not to much earlier showed up. She kept telling me "No don't leave just yet. It's only 4". I knew what the time was but I was easily persuaded to stay. Soon enough everyone had gone home and it was just us. I asked her to take me to the river, so we walked for about 10 minutes and watched the sun come up (you may remember photos recently uploaded of us at the river). As you can imagine the rest is history. We leave for Chiang Mai on Monday and we should be around there until about the 4th of December. I'll surely try to update my entries while we are up north.

There is much for me to say but for now I think I will hold my thoughts until a later date. I will say one thing though - possibly to the dismay of loved ones back home. No decision is final. My life has changed more than I ever imagined and I cannot imagine where I will be in the coming months. I have already considered the possibility of working here and I may also stay longer if the need arises. Nothing is concrete and you will simply have to wait to see what happens.
Apologies for the major delay and I wish all those back home my love and the best of wishes.